strength transmute into weakness
i went back training today!! it could be said is the happiest training that i've attended this year. senior boys came back, liting and min fang came back too!! the whole atmosphere in the hall totally changed. it had become much lively then before(with all the juniors).
i just love the atmosphere to be so crowded and lively. i find it very fun to be in(:
something really bad happened to me today...i've strained my leg AGAIN. it's very very painful. but not as painful as the time i've strained my calves during tourney early this year. no matter how pain i'm suffering physically, my heart still hurts the most.
anyway, after i've strained my leg today, i've finally realised mr wee really wants me to go back to play. not for the school, but for him. only today, i've then realised and feel the care and concern from him. i'm so touched. perhaps i'm easily touched by anything and everything.
mr wee, i'll definitely get myself back on feet and play for you.
i mean it.
i'll go along with the decision of matches you asked me to play.
i really mean it.
ya, so..my day today passed so fast today with smiles, laughters and boredom.before i could realised it's end of the day, it's already 1 in the midnight. how i wish time would have stop. for us to clear our doubts for anything and everything.
i've found out my own strength. but at the same time, i've figure out my own weakness.
spending much of the time i've been thinking:
无论是酸甜，苦或辣，总是把所有事都往自己的丹田里吞。
是祸，是福？ 那都是看个人的吧。
我真的思索了好一阵子。
不过，也在 那当儿, 有一种落寞涌上心头。
一时之间根本适应不来。
总觉得我对我身边的每一个人都有一种亏欠感。
总是觉得自己欠了他们什么似的。
自己也不是很清楚。
nothing really matters to me right now.even if i've found my strength, it isn't a blessing to me either.
through this, i've realise that memories are not to be remembered in the mind.
but to be demolised from the mind and to be locked and kept in the heart.
labels: blessings to??
(back to the top.)
lost in reality.
i don't need your sympathy.
wake up my dear self.
pending for impossible? it's impossible.
i'm really trying my best to stand back on my feet.
really trying hard.
things are disappearing one after another. i really don't wish to see that to happening.
it's really memories that are the most precious things ever.
why do people appreciate somethings but some don't??!!
the things that you wanted that someone to notice and appreciate, but they just won't.
to appreciate things is it really that difficult?
labels: looking forward?? pending...
it'll always be kept and locked in my heart.
(back to the top.)
我今天好开心。。是真的。
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i went back for training today(:
(back to the top.)
i'm so bored.
i'm feeling so bored..
something seems missing in my life..
hmph.
work for me is getting more and more slack as days passed. seriously i'm not very sure what am i doing everyday:P it's like i'm repeating things i did over and over again, everyday. kind of bored. but it's tiring. no idea why:P
today:
as per normal, i reached office 15mins before 9.. and what's different today when i first reach office is that a small lil cockroach is lying on my table(it's half dead i think). he's welcoming me??
hahaha..i also dunno..picked up his feelers and into the dustbin he go:P so sorry, lil kroach:P
and, during lunch time..
i had my lunch alone today:(
heehee..
actually, i got lost with my lunch cliques:P
hahaha.
i also dunno how i got lost..but i think i receive the wrong info:P
haha. thus, i ate my lunch alone.. i was like kept laughing at myself of getting lost with my lunch cliques:P
hahahah..
kind of funny..
tomorrow's public holiday.
and my mentor reminded me for 3times that tomorrow don't needa go work.haax.though i'm blur, but also don need remind so many times ma..so "gan gar". kees..
actually, i'm kind of love being in the department i'm attached to now..though it's full of stress there, but there's still laughters somehow:P
and, i'm praised by the officers:P
kees(:
it can be said that it's the first time i heard people praising me:P
hahaha..i'm kind of flying above the clouds:P
but i'll continue to be smarter(:
hmph.
though i love being there, but still, i miss the time with my mates even more..
hmmms,
open house this coming saturday..i doubt no one wants me to see me appearing there. hmms..
i was bloody afraid that no one's doing the booth. but luckily someone took the initiative to start the ball rolling..
hmph.. coach wanting me back the team?? i doubt so..
who cares..i don't care if i'm playing for school next year, i just wanna play for coach*(andy koh).
i really miss his training.. miss those bunny hops.. those laps and laps of shuttle runs.. the intensive training that he gave and of course, the saturday training!!! the only day that i'm able to train.
honestly, i don't feel like going back to the girls training.. i don't stand a position in anyone's eye.. whatever it is, shall play for i, me and myself.
labels: i miss you.
(back to the top.)
Everyone's feeling so down nowadays...
what's happening to everyone??
went viewing people's blogg and realised that everyone's feeling so low..
is this the "getting low" in trand now??
kind of geting my spirit down too..
hmms..
perhaps the year's getting to an end and everyone's rushing after some stuffs ba..
making people so tensed up and emo..
anyway, the draw for CHEERS tourney is out!!! please check the draw(:
hmm..
why aren't the juniors joining??
it's a kind of good experience..you, juniors should go out there to gain more experience.
hmms, i'm NOT in the position to say about anything now..not having a single rights now to decide anything..
anyway,
i've check my draw..liting and i will be playing against Pei Ting and Michelle from Temasek JC!!
ahh!! jiayou!!
we wanna win!! jiayou jaiyou!!
:P
hmms,
after working for consecutively for 3days. it's terribily tired!! terrible!!
did OT for everyday..but it's fun(:
and, today's saturday!! rest time for me!! but there's only 2 days!! can there be another day?? i'm so tired..need some time for me to replenish my energy lost:P
kees..
hmmss..
anyway, i missed the time spent with my mates!! i want gathering!! please ask me out*
on weekends please:P
or maybe dine out for dinner on weekdays?!!
please..someone ask me out??!!
:P
hmms..till here ba*
shall update next time(:
take care all(:
(back to the top.)
i went back training today!! it could be said is the happiest training that i've attended this year. senior boys came back, liting and min fang came back too!! the whole atmosphere in the hall totally changed. it had become much lively then before(with all the juniors).
i just love the atmosphere to be so crowded and lively. i find it very fun to be in(:
something really bad happened to me today...i've strained my leg AGAIN. it's very very painful. but not as painful as the time i've strained my calves during tourney early this year. no matter how pain i'm suffering physically, my heart still hurts the most.
anyway, after i've strained my leg today, i've finally realised mr wee really wants me to go back to play. not for the school, but for him. only today, i've then realised and feel the care and concern from him. i'm so touched. perhaps i'm easily touched by anything and everything.
mr wee, i'll definitely get myself back on feet and play for you.
i mean it.
i'll go along with the decision of matches you asked me to play.
i really mean it.
ya, so..my day today passed so fast today with smiles, laughters and boredom.before i could realised it's end of the day, it's already 1 in the midnight. how i wish time would have stop. for us to clear our doubts for anything and everything.
i've found out my own strength. but at the same time, i've figure out my own weakness.
spending much of the time i've been thinking:
无论是酸甜，苦或辣，总是把所有事都往自己的丹田里吞。
是祸，是福？ 那都是看个人的吧。
我真的思索了好一阵子。
不过，也在 那当儿, 有一种落寞涌上心头。
一时之间根本适应不来。
总觉得我对我身边的每一个人都有一种亏欠感。
总是觉得自己欠了他们什么似的。
自己也不是很清楚。
nothing really matters to me right now.even if i've found my strength, it isn't a blessing to me either.
through this, i've realise that memories are not to be remembered in the mind.
but to be demolised from the mind and to be locked and kept in the heart.
labels: blessings to??
lost in reality.
i don't need your sympathy.
wake up my dear self.
pending for impossible? it's impossible.
i'm really trying my best to stand back on my feet.
really trying hard.
things are disappearing one after another. i really don't wish to see that to happening.
it's really memories that are the most precious things ever.
why do people appreciate somethings but some don't??!!
the things that you wanted that someone to notice and appreciate, but they just won't.
to appreciate things is it really that difficult?
labels: looking forward?? pending...
it'll always be kept and locked in my heart.
我今天好开心。。是真的。
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i went back for training today(: it's so vigorous.and i strained my muscles. it's all those old injuries. but, just that i've strained my knee-cap(my new injury).and it hurts alot alot.
but i think it's effective(: at least everyone gained and improved their stamina(:
seriously, i don't find anyone improving much.just that their strokes are there.hmm.suddenly felt that i didn't really missed alot of training sessions.
i played singles today!! i've managed to reached 15!! after 3plus months w/o training, i still managed to score 15!! i'm not expecting to win her.but just wanted to achieve my aim for that match(:
and, i did it!!(:
it's a good thing(:
haas(:
actually, i'm kind of emotional right now. haas. i left school at 6plus?? i've got no idea. but i ended up reaching home at 8 :P
i also dunno where did i go..hahaha..just went walking around alone..
hmms..
maybe it's true of what darling told me. i'm playing it cos' it's my interest. so, i'm definitely gonna do my best in everything i do and not have any regret.
maybe it's true of what darling told me. i'm playing it cos' it's my interest. so, i'm definitely gonna do my best in everything i do and not have any regret.
i came joining this school 4years ago just for it and i'm definitely not gonna leave any empty promise which i made few years back.
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perhaps they are right,
even if you are not a counsellor, you can comfort oneself as if you are one. but once the same problem happens to you, you will DEFINITELY not able to coop with it the same way you asked them to. it's hard to do so.
all i'm gonna do is to act optimistic on the outside but definitely pessimistic on the inside.
i know what i'm suppose to do. just don't wish to see the ending. it's definitely not the ending i'm pending for. it's hard to make a decision.
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label: it's time for me to let it off??
i'm so bored.
i'm feeling so bored..
something seems missing in my life..
hmph.
work for me is getting more and more slack as days passed. seriously i'm not very sure what am i doing everyday:P it's like i'm repeating things i did over and over again, everyday. kind of bored. but it's tiring. no idea why:P
today:
as per normal, i reached office 15mins before 9.. and what's different today when i first reach office is that a small lil cockroach is lying on my table(it's half dead i think). he's welcoming me??
hahaha..i also dunno..picked up his feelers and into the dustbin he go:P so sorry, lil kroach:P
and, during lunch time..
i had my lunch alone today:(
heehee..
actually, i got lost with my lunch cliques:P
hahaha.
i also dunno how i got lost..but i think i receive the wrong info:P
haha. thus, i ate my lunch alone.. i was like kept laughing at myself of getting lost with my lunch cliques:P
hahahah..
kind of funny..
tomorrow's public holiday.
and my mentor reminded me for 3times that tomorrow don't needa go work.haax.though i'm blur, but also don need remind so many times ma..so "gan gar". kees..
actually, i'm kind of love being in the department i'm attached to now..though it's full of stress there, but there's still laughters somehow:P
and, i'm praised by the officers:P
kees(:
it can be said that it's the first time i heard people praising me:P
hahaha..i'm kind of flying above the clouds:P
but i'll continue to be smarter(:
hmph.
though i love being there, but still, i miss the time with my mates even more..
hmmms,
open house this coming saturday..i doubt no one wants me to see me appearing there. hmms..
i was bloody afraid that no one's doing the booth. but luckily someone took the initiative to start the ball rolling..
hmph.. coach wanting me back the team?? i doubt so..
who cares..i don't care if i'm playing for school next year, i just wanna play for coach*(andy koh).
i really miss his training.. miss those bunny hops.. those laps and laps of shuttle runs.. the intensive training that he gave and of course, the saturday training!!! the only day that i'm able to train.
honestly, i don't feel like going back to the girls training.. i don't stand a position in anyone's eye.. whatever it is, shall play for i, me and myself.
labels: i miss you.
Everyone's feeling so down nowadays...
what's happening to everyone??
went viewing people's blogg and realised that everyone's feeling so low..
is this the "getting low" in trand now??
kind of geting my spirit down too..
hmms..
perhaps the year's getting to an end and everyone's rushing after some stuffs ba..
making people so tensed up and emo..
anyway, the draw for CHEERS tourney is out!!! please check the draw(:
hmm..
why aren't the juniors joining??
it's a kind of good experience..you, juniors should go out there to gain more experience.
hmms, i'm NOT in the position to say about anything now..not having a single rights now to decide anything..
anyway,
i've check my draw..liting and i will be playing against Pei Ting and Michelle from Temasek JC!!
ahh!! jiayou!!
we wanna win!! jiayou jaiyou!!
:P
hmms,
after working for consecutively for 3days. it's terribily tired!! terrible!!
did OT for everyday..but it's fun(:
and, today's saturday!! rest time for me!! but there's only 2 days!! can there be another day?? i'm so tired..need some time for me to replenish my energy lost:P
kees..
hmmss..
anyway, i missed the time spent with my mates!! i want gathering!! please ask me out*
on weekends please:P
or maybe dine out for dinner on weekdays?!!
please..someone ask me out??!!
:P
hmms..till here ba*
shall update next time(:
take care all(:
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